#BlogTour • What It Looks Like • Matthew J. Metzger + Giveaway



 Length: 80,615 words

Length: 80,615 words

Release Date: August 20 2016




Eli Bell is the only son of a police chief inspector and a forensic scientist. He's grown up wonky in a world that only deals with the straight and narrow -- and his new boyfriend isn't helping.

Rob Hawkes is six feet of muscle, tattoos, and arrest warrants. A career criminal and a former guest of Her Majesty's Prison Service, he'd rather hit Eli's parents than sit down to dinner with them. One wrong move, and Rob could destroy Eli -- and his family -- without a second thought.

But this isn't what it looks like.

Rob's not in control here -- and Eli's the one to blame. 


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I went into What It Looks Like pretty much blind. I had no preconceived notions of what the book was about other than what the blurb told me, which was kind of vague, but that alone was enough to peek my interest. I had never read anything by the author before but I like to try to new authors if for no other reason than to add to my list of likes.

At first glance, I was taken back by the attitudes of both Rob and Eli. They are rude, abrasive, aggressive, smart-mouthed, and smart-asses, with not only each other but with everyone else, including Eli’s parents. And, Eli’s family makes no effort to hide that they hate Rob just at the sight of him and everything he does, has done, or may think about doing. So, Rob and Eli’s attitude was warranted, most of the time.

Eli comes from a privileged background, nice home, nice schools, two parents that love him, even if they struggle to show him properly, most of the time, and a sister who he was close to at one time, but as they got older things change as most siblings do.

Rob, on the other hand, got the shit end of the parent pool. He has a bunch of siblings but only one that has the same father as himself, Danny, so he always does everything in his power to keep the two of them together. They were in foster care most of their lives with Rob serving some time in prison but always finding ways to keep Danny safe.

They are always judged unfairly and very seldom ever given the benefit of the doubt so it’s not hard to understand why they carry the chip on their shoulder and the bad attitude but the love they have for each other is incredibly strong and so very deep and when it’s threatened, it’s gut wrenching painful to your heart.

As the author takes you into the depth of the story and the revelations start to unfold, I was in awe of the magnitude of what was transpiring. The emotions and feelings of Eli are so vivid and real, and just wow, it packs a punch because he lays it out there and in my heart I just knew this was the real thing.

The author was writing from a place of very in depth inside knowledge or very good research but I was moved and touched on a very deep level and felt the emotions of Eli and his passion and his beliefs strongly.

Rob is rough around the edges but he is passionate and fierce and never hesitates to stand up for Eli, but they both make mistakes along the way. They are quick tempered and Rob has never had any reason to ever trust a cop and with Eli’s dad being a cop he puts expectations on Rob that may be too high.  I understood Eli's desire for wanting some stability between his family and boyfriend but his parents misconceptions and unwillingness to give Rob an inch only heightened an already volatile situation.

Eli and Rob have a D/s relationship also and it’s not what you expect either which was also refreshing because the author takes you out of your comfort zone and opens your eyes again and shows you that everything is not always as it appears. The intensity of their relationship is harsh, to the outsider, maybe even brutal, but to them it works and it’s makes sense and it doesn’t need to be justified to anyone else.

The beauty of the book, I thought, is Eli wants to be loved for himself, as we all do, and Rob is able to do that with no reservations. He is able to just see Eli, the person, and I think because of his own life experiences he is able to do that a lot easier than those who have life much easier. Some have blinders on and it’s harder to take them off, or they’re just not willing, but Rob has nothing to prove to anyone. 

This is a powerful story that is brutally honest and raw and, at times, heartbreaking and had me in tears but it also opened my eyes and taught me a few things that I had never thought about, as well, and at 50, I love to learn new things. I highly recommend this book. You will be taken on a thrilling journey of unexpected revelations that is guaranteed to make you smile and be amazed. A beautiful story with an epilogue that shows we all can change with time and understanding if we want too. 5 Stars


Author Bio


Matthew J. Metzger is the front for a British-born author dragged up in the south of England as part of a typical nuclear family with three kids, a mortgage, and no dog because a dog would get hair on the carpet. A brief escape to the north to study focused his writing from daydreaming rambles to his first novel, Our Last Summer. It is unquestionably better than the dissertation he produced at the same time for his university degree, but probably not as inventive as the excuses he provided for missing classes so often.

Matthew has since returned to the London area, and therefore lives mostly on the public transport. He suspects that his next few pieces will probably involve homicidal characters on the London Underground.

For more information, please visit matthewjmetzger.wordpress.com.