#Review LOVE IS FOUND (An Only If Novel) by R. Paone
LOVE IS FOUND
AN ONLY IF NOVEL
“My love for you will never die.”
A tale based on true events of love, self-acceptance, and the turmoil of companionship.
“Love is Found” is the moving account about coming-of-age in suburban New York and discovering the broad concept of sexuality and love.
Based on true events of love, the story’s protagonist, Robert, finds himself thrown into the realization that upon entering graduate school he is beginning a new chapter in his adult life. Comfortable with being gay, he yearns for love but dwells on the ideal of being alone while being consumed by the world of academia. Upon starting a new job he meets a coworker, whom he begins an unlikely relationship with considering this man identifies as straight.
When sex is introduced and emotions run amok, the routine of Robert’s life is thrown into chaos with unexpected outcomes. Will Robert realize his true limits and whether he can conquer the strife of new love? Little does he know if his heart can survive the overwhelming desire and how this man will alter the course of his life just not now, but for the next decade.
The first novel in the debut “Only If…” series by R. Paone introduces the heartbreaking portrait of one young man finding love in all the wrong places while exploring themes of one’s sexual identity, passion, and nostalgia.
This edition of “Love is Found” has been newly edited and expanded containing over 10K of added content.
This contemporary work of fiction is approximately 78,000 words and contains strong thematic material that is intended for adult readers only.
Love is Found is based on true events and opens with Robert, the protagonist, ready to start graduate school in New York. His parents accompany him there and help him with his apartment but soon it’s time for final good-byes and Robert is on his own.
Finding a job at a cafe, meeting his co-workers, his roommate Phil, are steps in the progression of Robert’s journey that went well, but he still seems agitated, anxious, and insecure.
When he meets Mitch, the other male employee, an instant infatuation is developed and in a matter of days he is consumed by thoughts of Mitch.
Robert comes from a very loving family and mentioned them often with admiration and respect which I found truly awesome especially coming from a twenty-one-year-old male. Because of his family, and the love they share, I found it odd that Robert required so much validation. He was starving for human touch and grabbed it from the first one ready to hand it out regardless of their intent.
And, what are the intentions of Mitch? According to him, he is not sure if he is gay, or bi. Behind closed doors when no one was looking and it was just he and Robert there was never a doubt. I have my own theory, however …I will refrain because I’m not a fan of Mitch. He used Robert, plain and simple, and would continue to do so if Robert would give the go ahead. And, that bothered me about Robert. Because, even though he knew he was being used, he allowed Mitch to do it anyway.
This was not an easy book to read, at times. We are inside Robert’s head a lot, and he even refers to himself as a cancer, through and through, emotional and desiring the validation of others. The plot and the editing have a few inconsistencies that caused me to stumble, words being transposed, and it slowed the pace and flow of reading.
The story mainly centers around a week shared between Robert and Mitch and we only get insight from Robert’s POV but being privy to the thoughts and feelings of Robert we learn so much about him and what he longs for. He shares everything he goes through and experiences with the reader almost like he’s dictating a journal entry and we are listening in.
We do meet a few secondary characters, and I believe should Robert ever decide to confide in someone, these ladies at the coffee shop would be a strong support system. And, his roommate Phil, from what we got to see of him was a good friend also.
The journey is far from over between Robert and Mitch and we are left with Robert being devastated again by Mitch and his thoughtless and malevolent behavior. Mitch has a lot to work on himself and he needs to do that without pulling Robert in the middle of his catastrophe.
There were many times I caught myself putting on my mother’s hat and wanting to do some ear-pulling. I wanted to tell Robert to stop worrying about others and live for himself. Stop trying to please others and enjoy life. And, please, please, stop falling for every man who smiles at him. Learn to stand on your own two feet before you worry about someone else. Love will find you when it’s time.
Since this is based from true events I do hope that Robert has finally found everything he is looking for.
* I want to thank the author for providing a copy in exchange for an honest review *
3.5 – 4. Stars